memory lapse

I would like to get off the rollercoaster please!

PLEASE?!?!

I don't know what's bugging me lately. I'm up, I'm down, I'm all over the freaking place. I'm loving life one minute, just happy and content to be me and living life. And the next I'm sullen, I'm depressed, I'm worried and upset and unsure.

Money. I hate money and what it does to people. But most of all I hate not having money. I hate having to worry about it. I got "laid off" my job. Not true, entirely. I need to have some kind of alcohol permit or something. And they take me off the schedule until this can be resolved, telling me sit by the phone while they get it worked out. Stupid. Now it's been a few days and I want to know what's going on. I want to get this figured out and get back to a job I don't even really like. So now I'm thinking just get a new job. Just don't go back to this place that didn't even get you prepared that makes everything harder and makes you hate yourself. But the whole money thing. I can't just sit and not be working.

And now I'm thinking--remember that time you had a fantastic job that you loved and you quit, even when they offered you a chance to be a manager? Yeah, I remember that.

Why, again did I quit?