Learn to be Still

I can connect to music. When everything is else is falling apart, this keeps me together. I can rationalize that I'm not the only one. It's fascinating to me that it can instantaneously bridge you to a completely different time and variety of people...but still this one song/lyric/verse is strong enough to hold it together.

I still trying to grapple with my last session of therapy. It shook me more because it was unknown. I guess I've hidden for a long time about the circumstance: the affair, the fallout, the emotional/verbal/physical pain, the dysfunction. I know none of that helped my case, but would it have made a difference? It certainly mattered...but I feel now like it was inevitable. I could have found something else to block what I was really feeling, I would have. This crash has been slowly occuring for a long time...and maybe those things took it to the edge.

The Eagles~Learn to be Still
It’s just another day in paradise
As you stumble to your bed
You’d give anything to silence
Those voices ringing in your head
You thought you could find happiness
Just over that green hill
You thought you would be satisfied
But you never will-
Learn to be still

We are like sheep without a shepherd
We don’t know how to be alone
So we wander ’round this desert
And wind up following the wrong gods home
But the flock cries out for another
And they keep answering that bell
And one more starry-eyed messiah
Meets a violent farewell-
Learn to be still
Learn to be still

Now the flowers in your garden
They don’t smell so sweet
Maybe you’ve forgotten
The heaven lying at your feet

There are so many contridictions
In all these messages we send
(we keep asking)
How do I get out of here
Where do I fit in?
Though the world is torn and shaken
Even if your heart is breakin’
It’s waiting for you to awaken
And someday you will-
Learn to be still
Learn to be still

You just keep on runnin’
Keep on runnin’