Realization

It just hit me. This is how I've been feeling. This is how I was feeling for a long time. This is how people made me feel. Like I'd be forgotten. Like I wasn't valued. And I gave up so much so that they wouldn't forget me. It makes me sad to hear this now. It makes me hurt to read these words and know that I let someone make me feel this way. That I thought this little of myself. That I just wanted to be remembered. This is what I had been trying to say for so long. I couldn't get the words out. They got so confused with love and sex and anger and pain and forgiveness and hope and hurt. And I clung on because I knew eventually I would walk away. And once I walked away the whole thing would be over. And I would be forgotten. And even now, I'm hurt by that. I'm hurt by the fact that something that meant so much to me could me so little to someone else.

Way Out West~Don't Forget Me

There’s just one thing that I need to say
Before I close my eyes and walk away
There’s just one thing that I need to feel
Before I walk away against my will

There’s just one thing that I need to hear
Before I walk away for the last time
There’s just one thing that I need to see
Before I take this chance and set us free

Don’t forget me
Don’t regret me
Don’t suspend me
Don’t neglect me

The memory of this still reminds me of you
The memory of this still reminds
The memory of this still reminds me of you
And that is where you’ll find me

Stars in your eyes
Did you take the time to realize

Can you count the stars in your eyes?
Did you take the time to realize?

There’s just one thing that I need to say
Before I walk away
There’s just one thing that I need to feel
Before I walk away against my will

Don’t forget me
Don’t regret me
The memory of this still reminds me of you
Don’t suspend me
The memory of this still reminds me
Don’t neglect me
The memory of this still reminds me of you

The memory of this still reminds me
Stars in your eyes
Did you take the time to realize?