Ignorance is Bliss

Well shit, I've been to the real world and it sucks! When I made my very necessary decision to drop out of college I didn't quite think about all the reprecussions. I would love very much to go back to the brilliant world of student loans, class, and even...Whitworth life. Okay, yeah, I did take it one step too far, but I would love to be getting some student loans and going to class. Quitting, gets you nothing but bills. Fuck! And only slightly more knowledge than a mere three years ago, when I was just a high school graduate. And I've spent a lot of money since then. So this move to Boise offers good things...except job stability. And yes, I hate my job right now, so quitting was inevitable. I'm just not sure I completely thought through the cost of moving...paying rent twice in one month and only living in one...only to be faced with the same amount in a few short weeks. With the threat of a zero balance I'm left with the wonderful option of ding ding ding, Boise State University. Yep, I've applied. I need to hit the grind and actually start working. But, I also need to stay on insurance, and being a drop-out don't keep you with mommy and daddy. And those student loans that I thought were so abstract...yeah, well they'll be due soon...and the only way to stop it: more school! Fuck Fuck Fuck!!! Boy, I wish I weren't on the wagon...I guess that's why I'm on in the first place...to stop myself from drowning my sorrows in whiskey. And retail therapy...yeah, that's fucking out too! I guess I have to deal with this head on...suck it up, and start job hunting.