20 Hours in America~

Nothing like the rapid fire dialogue and scintillating wit of The West Wing to ignite some much needed direction for my life. There I am--couching it, after a very long weekend with the flu, hoping to accomplish nothing more than a little r'n'r when it hits me like a bad case of nausea. It's not a question of if I go back to school...no longer the meandering thoughts of what I'm going to do with my life. It's always been there; but like my shadow has a tendency to disappear on cloudy days, which seem to be the days I need it the most, when I need the reassurance, the proof I'm not just kidding myself.

I'm going back to school. I want to learn. I want to be inspired. I want to think. But it does not end there my friends, oh no it doesn't. I want to inspire others to learn and think. I want to teach.

I lost that somehow. Somewhere along the way I forgot what it was I really wanted to be doing. I got scared and I panicked. Somewhere in the crap that was Whitworth I forgot who I was.

This time away from school has let me do some deep soul searching, some real thinking. It was the school of real life, which is amazing, and has cheaper tuition! This break has let me ask the questions, and find my own answers. It has allowed me to grow stronger without the corrosive environment that Whitworth was for me. I'm a whole person now; and the journey is something I'm choosing to take, not because I'm graduating from high school and out of other options. This is my choice, and I'm extremely confident about it.

I'm so excited for this. It's gonna take a lot of hard work but I'm ready for that. It's going to take saving some serious cash, deciding what school I want to go to, and getting a job that works around school. It'll be hard, but in the end, I'll end up in a classroom, teaching about history--but inspiring, and if I can do that, then it will be a job well done. :)


Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! Live the life you've imagined Henry David Thoreau